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I’m a generally indecisive person–just ask my family. When given a list of different places to go out to eat and told to choose one, I’ll do the exact opposite. I’ll either eliminate one or give an option between two or three. I can spend way too much time analyzing a decision which could be as simple as deciding which t-shirt to get. This indecisiveness makes planning my future a little hard.
I’m over halfway through my junior year, and I a) still have no idea what I want to major in and b) have no idea where I want to apply to for college other than Michigan State University, University of Michigan, and Loyola University Chicago (though tuition there is a lot, so whether or not I’ll go there is up in the air right now), but I want to apply to more than just three colleges.
I’ve googled “colleges in Michigan,” scrolled through lists, read their reviews, looked at the stats of accepted SAT scores and GPAs, and I still only have two colleges on my list. It’s not that these colleges don’t look nice, it’s just that I’ll think “maybe I should apply there” or “I should visit their campus” and then I don’t do anything about it. I’m pretty sure that one of the reasons I’m even applying to MSU and U of M is because I’ve heard people talk about these colleges since I was young. They’re the only three campuses I’ve toured.
But I feel like if I’m going to apply to a college, I should make sure I have at least an idea of what I want to major in to make sure they even offer that major, nevermind the fact that some schools have good programs for one major but a bad one for another. Hence, my second problem, which may come down to the root cause of my indecisiveness: I don’t know what I want to major in.
I know everybody says that it’s ok that I don’t know what I want to study, and that I still have time. In my mind, I don’t, and I have so many options. Right now I’m thinking about majoring in biology or chemistry and doing something with DNA and genes that involve working in a lab in a hospital. I’m also really interested in psychology, and why people act the way they do and why they do certain things, and maybe I’ll move to Chicago and become a forensic psychologist. On the other hand, I love to read and write, so maybe I’ll be an English major and go to work for a publishing company.
There’s a lot of things that interest me and that I can see myself doing as a career, which stresses me out. There’s so many things that I can do, but if I choose something and I end up not liking it, I’m going to be stuck doing it for the rest of my life. All I know is that I want a job that doesn’t have me doing the exact same thing day after day, or that has me stuck behind a desk crouched over a computer all day.
I’m also taking the SAT in April, and I don’t feel ready for it. Not to even mention the test itself, and how the score helps determine what college I get into, but there’s a place on the SAT to mark what colleges you want them to send your scores to. To be able to do this, I need to know what colleges I’m planning on applying to. As I’ve previously established, I don’t. I feel like there’s this deadline that’s creeping closer and closer and I’m no more prepared for it than I was a year ago.
My junior year is coming to a close, and I’m going to have to apply to colleges soon. On the other hand, after touring three colleges, I know that U of M is my top choice. I also want to try and get an internship in a lab to help me narrow down my options for a career. I’m trying to take classes about things I’m interested in to help me decide what I want to do, and I can always apply to college as undecided, or even change my major later in college.
My sister told me that my major doesn’t define my career. My parents are proof of that. And if worst comes to worst, I can always go back to college and get a new major. Being indecisive is a part of my personality, no matter how annoyed I get by it, but by now I’ve learned to just make the decision.